The New Year is certainly underway! It never ceases to amaze me lately just how overwhelmed our life is!
I have found myself doing a lot of soul searching...pondering over and over about this "life journey" hubby and I are on! I always thought after his accident nearly 12 years ago that we had been dealt in life all the worst it would give...It was a miracle the man survived a two story fall landing him smack dab into concrete with a traumatic brain injury and multiple broken bones.
obviously not so!
Whoever would have thought I would get ill with Lyme Disease? Not me!
In the past 6 years since the Lyme "journey" began everything has been turned upside down. I have been forced to learn on my own much about so many different illnesses that I was told I had; yet did not!
The upside has been all the wonderful people our lives have been touched by. It is amazing that in this world so many have been so kind and caring. I often say that God allows us to experience his love and embrace through those he sends our way!
As the New Year approached hubby and I faced yet another fork in our road. His grand mall seizure that hit in November. Only to be told this last week that a tremendous amount of scar tissue in his brain is to be blamed.
My husband is so much of my world. I can't imagine life without him. When the neurologist informed us both this week that his seizures could take his life...well I went into emotional overload. Once again fear has set in and my nervous system is on guard. Constantly watching every move this poor man makes.
He is so loving and gentle this man of mine. Reassuring me constantly that when our time is up its up. He is OK with where he is at in life with this. My reply...I AM NOT!!
In the past 6 years on numerous occasions we have had to endure many different diagnosis with me that were life threatening...only to find out they were misdiagnoses! OK so Lyme is not the cream of the crop on diseases to have either!
For hubby there can be no denying the EEG and CAT Scan...The scare tissue is there in full view on his brain where he sustained his worst part of the fall.
How much bad luck can two people under the same roof have? I have done all the rationalization about this...i know we are good people. We help family out, neighbors, shoot we don't steal or cheat anyone... a friend said to me "Your hubby cheated death 12 years ago" There can be no denying he is the recipient of a Miracle!
I believe that we are not created for this world. We are created to be with our Lord Jesus...yet in my humanness I am not ready for either of us to part this world. I have a vision of us growing very old together. Yet I am quickly reminded that life is not on my terms. We don't get the final say.
Yet in my humanness I have been pleading...Please Lord...I so want to grow old together. OK so you might be shaking your head and saying "Karen, your husband isn't dead!" I know this. But when the neurologist turned and said these types of seizures are dangerous as they are violent and can provoke a heart attack...that he could die. That I have to call 911 immediately whenever he has seizure...Fear took over. I have been on high alert ever since!
Tonight I am calmer. I realize we all have a date. I could walk out the door tomorrow and be hit by car or some other freak accident. I also am reminded how precious each and every day together is. I so Love my husband. Did you know we are high school sweethearts?
No matter what journey your life has been put on...embrace today for all it is.
As this saying Goes LIVE EACH DAY AS IF IT WERE YOUR LAST... I know I intend to... Lyme Disease, seizures and all!
A PERSONAL INVITE - local friends, a lyme awareness evening is coming to tsawwassen, BC and you are invited to attend! it is an evening that is designed to raise lyme awarenes...
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