6 Week Cure to the Middle Aged Middle

OK so on my latest visit of about two weeks ago to my LLMD I complained about my recent weight gain. My thyroid is under active and it seems that the thyroid meds are not helping the situation at all!

After two years on antibiotic therapy it is also time (according to my LLMD) to do a good liver detox...her suggestion...The Drs Eades book 6 Week Cure to the Middle Aged Middle 

I have to admit I was skeptic about this new eating plan...yet my LLMD assured me over and over that it was by far the "best" plan for me to go on. As I sat there I contemplated about drinking my meals. I found myself pleading to my LLMD "Well what if I go back to low carb no sugar again" boy did I see a firm side to my LLMD I never had. The reply was not what I wanted "No this is the plan you need to do. It's only for 6 weeks. When you come back and see me by then I guarantee you will be amazed at the weight loss you will have"

It was obvious I was not going to win this argument. So I went and bought the book. Thumbed through it and did my usual online research. I was surprised to read so many favorable reviews. The authors claim that your blood pressure if its high will come down (not one of my issues) and cholesterol too (that one sparked my interest!) and even folks with fatty livers will improve...I don't have a fatty liver but when I read it will detox the liver I thought well shoot why not! I have been downing lots of antibiotics for the past two years. My liver needs a break. My body needs a break!

So yesterday I started the 6 week program. I plan to take you along with my on this journey. Ready! Set! Here we Go!!

I started my day yesterday with a cappuccino whey smoothie...(the recipe is in the book) to my surprise it was actually not bad. In the afternoon I had a strawberry/berry smoothie...my only complaint on this one was it was a little to thick more than likely due to the way I prepared it...I think I added way too much ice. The recipe called for 1/2 cup frozen sugar free mixed berries and 1/2 a cup of ice...you are supposed to get 3 protein drinks a day and a prescribed meal out of the book once a day...I chose to have dinner...I never got the third shake in as I was stuffed. I went to bed stuffed.

This morning I had a white chocolate caramel flavored shake...it was the best so far!! I enjoyed it so much I had it for the afternoon one too!

I have to laugh at myself I am so anxious about the "big" expected weight loss that I jumped on the scale this morning...only to be disappointed that it hadn't gone down from yesterdays reading! Darn!! OK so maybe I am just a tad bit overzealous about this program!

But hey you keep watching this blog and I will take you along with me on this new journey...Oh and Grilled steak is on the dinner menu tonight...gosh my mouth is watering just thinking about it...LOL... but I am honestly not hungry at all and I am really beginning to see I eat out of boredom...Wow this is really making me aware of the bad habits I have...LOL and I thought I was doing so good the last two years!

Sweet Lord I'm Scared

In the middle of the night in 2009 I found myself scared of the road I was on...I came downstairs and went onto the computer turned it off. I pulled out a piece of paper and this conversation began....I reflect on it in times when I am at a low point on this journey...funny tonight it came to mind and I felt I ought to share it with all of you....Enjoy btrflynana

Sweet Lord I’m Scared of What’s Yet to Be

I sit here weeping my heart torn in two

My lord my God what is this daughter of yours to do?

Frightened I am of what I can’t see

Frightened of what the future will be

And then I hear the words deep inside

Take hold my hand child sit and confide

I am your friend the one that is unseen

I am the one the almighty he

It is your tears that tug at my heart

Wising you’d remember we’re not far apart

You hear my whispers ever so low

My words embedded to soften this blow

Hold tight my child as your up through the night

Hold tight to my hand as I am your guiding light

My lord my master, please take this away

It’s all I have my sweet lord to say

My child if I could

Then surely I would

But alas sweet one this is your task

My bright little star the one that will last

A life created with a purpose in mind

To show the world your heart’s all mine

Sweet lord I’m scared of what’s yet to be

Oh dear child of mine please leave the worrying to me

You’re not alone in front for all to see

The strength that comes from no one other than me

A flower of sorts to blossom and grow

A flower you see for all to know

Your strength as I said will come from me

I am the one the almighty he

I love you my child you’re never alone

I am the one you have always known

I will give you the strength that you need

I am the one who has created your special seed

Here's to Herxing

So the last few days I have been deathly ill....yes I say deathly...at least that's how I felt

Every morning as I awoke to greet the day I was well aware of each body part as all joints and muscles ached...my bones even hurt.

I felt nauseated, light headed and well as if someone sucked all the life out of me. Exhausted.

It was soo bad that even one day I didn't bother to do my hair or make-up...everyone in my family knows for me not to do hair and make-up I am pretty sick. LOL its a woman thing...even when I don't feel good (which is majority of the time) I still get dressed and do hair and make-up...God forbid I look ill!!

I found myself in this deep dark depression. It was awful. I felt that Lyme disease is going to eventually win this battle. That eventually I am going to succumb to this blasted disease! Not a good place for one to be.

Seven years of battling this disease and I am worn out. I know there are countless others out there that have battled this disease way longer than I have...that makes me even sadder.

I take handfuls of antibiotics and pain meds everyday...I have now for two years. While my CD57 has gone from 19 to 63 since 2008 (200 and above is what we are striving for) and my C4a has gone from 14735 to 8763 (normal range 0-2830) so there is an improvement there (two years on antibiotics to me these improvements feel like baby steps!); however, my EBV has gone up higher along with my C. pneumoniae and HHV-6
 
I remain sick. I feel sick. I am sick. Being chronically ill can and is a challenge at times. It wears not only on the one who is sick but also those around us. Tempers can grow short and emotions can run high.


Feeling so ill this last week I was unable to see any light on this path my life has been thrust onto. I felt at times as if I was going to loose this battle and very soon. That's how sick I felt. I found myself thinking of my own mortality. I love Jesus, I adore him; yet the thought of the finality to this life scares me something beyond words. I find myself wondering if I am a bad daughter because I am so scared of dying...the unknown. My father died last August. I find myself often wondering what his new life is like. The unknown. Obviously I have way to much time on my hands lately.

Well to my surprise yesterday I awoke feeling so much better. Still had pain and fatigue but nothing close to where it has been. This morning my legs are a bit worse than yesterday but hey I am doing pretty good if I can sit and blog.

What occurred to me yesterday was that all the exasperated issues had to have been what is known in the Lyme disease community as a Herx.  I have had herxes before but not like this in a longtime. I can't help but wonder if the Oregano Oil (I use Oreganol) I started to take has added to this?

Herxing is a good sign to a Lyme patient. It means your killing the bacteria inside of you and the downside is that bacteria turns into toxin and your body has to work extra hard to clear it out.

If I could have a glass of wine (can't due to meds) I would raise my glass and loudly claim "here's to Herxing" yeah its a good thing yet it knocks you off your feet and has the potential to send some to the ER.

Positive side to this, the light on my road is something is working if I am herxing...Right???